The New End

So college comes to an end. Feels weird. Sad? Yes, but not that much anymore. I don’t know why. I was quite sad a few days back, didn’t want to leave all of this behind. After all, college has become everything for me. A second home, (honestly more home-like than the first) with my closest of friends living in it, all the “bakchodi” done over the years, all those amazing professors and their lectures (yes, I’ll miss lectures too). What else do you need. And the fact that I have to go a semester in advance made me even sadder. Never knew the difference betweenm 3.5 and 4 years would have such an impact. But all of that sadness, it’s suddenly gone. And I’m excited; for a new life. I mean I’d have to leave all of this behind someday, wouldn’t I? And I don’t want to live the college life forever. It is awesome indeed, but it’s not something you can hang on to. It’s like one of those amazing moments which come but eventually go too. If all moments in life were amazing, then, well none of them would be amazing after all. Everything is relative. So I’m kind of happy; happy that I could enjoy such an awesome college life with some of the greatest people I have met. And I’ll let it go with a smile; with tonnes of memories to cherish. All those nights spent at the galla, CEP terrace, SAC terrace (not a terrace exactly, more like a ledge), playing DOTA2 (and abusing the shit out of everyone while punching rabbits), playing the guitar even though the rest of my body (except for my fingers) are dead due to lack of sleep, or playing football at 4 in the night when literally my whole body feels like it’s about to disintegrate and fall apart. And not to forget the endless hours spent at the cafeteria, just sitting, bakaring, and forcefully having+galyaofying the cafe food (which is actually decent enough; except for the first counter. Wow, god only knows how he manages to make such bad food sometimes. It’s an art). Even the amount of time spent in the hostel watching cat videos. Or fighting kung fu with my roommate. Time well spent indeed. I remember the first day in college. I was this shy little guy with a guitar and a laptop (which was taken away from me forcefully. Almost made me cry). Now, after 3.5 years, I realize how much I have changed. I’m a new person. Lot of my beliefs have changed, and I’ve started looking at life from a new perspective. But most importantly, I’ve become braver than before and I’m not scared of life anymore. College probably made for the roughest few years of my life till now, but also the best. Full of downs, but more importantly full of ups as well, memories of which I shall relish forever. I’ll miss every moment of it; and will definitely come back to college whenever I get the chance. First target, Synapse 2015. I’ll tell my company that I have a mental sickness whose main symptom is an OCD to headbang throughout Ragna Rock or something and flee! But till then, I guess the time has come to let go and move on to a new life, where I’ll find many more exciting adventures (hopefully). Internship, here I come!

Look Back!

I’m in a good happy happy mood. Why? Partly because of nostalgia, part because I’m getting a “life’s good” feeing. Life goes on, and we don’t even realize how it’s been passing away. Today, when I look back at 2009-2011, 3 years ago, I feel good. I feel as if a lot of things have happened in these 3 years. I’ve changed a lot, yet remained almost the same. I’ve made new friends, explored new things, and done so much. I actually feel that my life has not been a waste after all. And at the same time, I even miss those days. My friends, whom I haven’t met for so long; the places I haven’t visited since forever. In fact all of this nostalgia started off with a message from a very old friend whom I haven’t spoken with since 2011. She just said Hi, nothing much. But it felt good to hear from her. After so long. And then I started thinking about those days. I’ve even pinged a few of my other friends, hoping for a reply from them soon! :D

So yea, back to the philosophical part. Life goes on, we don’t even notice time passing by. But in my opinion, we should spend a few minutes every now and then looking at our lives, what we were, what we’ve become. We realize a lot in these few minutes. How much we’ve changed as per or against our expectations. And I’m not saying that we should be regretful of what we’ve done in the past, but we should at least know what’s going on with us. Sometimes, the realizations are bad, sometimes good. And apart from looking at our lives, thinking about the past also helps us in remembering the people who used to play an important part in our lives at some point. We should make sure to keep reminding them that they were (and are) special. It feels great to hear from an old friend, no matter for how long you’ve not spoken to them.

So yea, you should open up Facebook, twitter, Google plus; basically whatever social networking site you’ve been on for a while, and start browsing through your old pictures, posts, messages, etc. That’s what pictures are meant for, right? To be looked at later on. That later on’s now! If you’re not on a social networking site, just find some other memories somewhere :P. And ping your friends. Say hi. Say you wanna meet. Don’t be afraid; of whether it’s appropriate to suddenly want to meet after so long or anything of that sort. Everything is okay. And in the worst case, they’ll deny. Big deal. Not that you’ve been talking to them everyday anyways. But meeting them will feel amazing. You’ll relive all those good moments, and build more special ones. In fact I wish I had the same positive “nothing to lose” attitude I have right now, few years earlier. Would have been in touch with lot of my friends if I did. But better late than never!

This time when I go back to Mumbai, I’ll meet as many of my old friends as possible. And do something stupid; for instance have either an Ice cream or a drink together. Whichever they choose! :D

(Now lets hope I actually do that :D)